I don’t know how people can be so happy with themselves without any medication or therapy.
My dad thinks everyone suffers from it but honestly people that say that don’t suffer from it at all.
If I could explain what it feels like …. I couldn’t because its like intense darkness in the pit of your stomach that starts to rise through your body and outline how empty you can be. your breathing become sighs and your chest becomes heavy with that darkness as well.
my dad says people move on they get over it. which is terribly not true. you tell your self your going to get better and you do with medication and everything else. you start to stop thinking, you breath easier and that dark black cloud inside your body fades. everything is fine until something is still on the back of your mind there in the tiny corner curled up knowing it will rise again with any trigger or less use of the medication. You can feel it sometimes it trying to break through.
I’m trying my hardest to keep it from breaking me again but because I thought I was ready to be off the tablet, its been 15 days since I took my tablet my parents thought it would be the best for me. to stop me from relying on it so much. then everything came back and the over-thinking made me think I need the medication and I need to rely on it for the rest of my life because it the only thing that understands my body and mind.